Out of the blue
Out of the blue, while I was tying his shoes, Caleb looks up and says:
"God is my son, and He loves me."
Me: "Wait, what? Are you God's Son?"
Caleb: "Oh yeah, I am God's Son, and He loves me."
So I amazed at the things he "gets." It's so encouraging to hear your 2 year old speak Truth.
I am just praying he doesn't "get" all the bad stuff I put out too. My temper and impatience. Usually with the dog, but sometimes with the boys. It just sounds so bad when he repeats or copies me later in the day. Is that what I really sound like? Man, I need help. I make a thousand pacts with myself to keep a cool head, to not expect them to act like adults, to give them grace. And then Caleb deliberately spits out his bite of dinner and Joshua pours a bowl of peas in my lap. As I go to correct the toddler, the baby performs acrobatic stunts in his highchair and somehow ends up standing on his tray. How the chair stays upright, I don't know. Put baby back in chair, look back over to toddler, he's fed all of his food to the dog, and there is no more to give him. It's hard not yell, and hard not to whine at him. So I guess I need to start praying about anger again. It always flares when Kevin's gone.
I'll pray with you for that Kristen. How long is Kevin gone for?
So sweet that Caleb's recognizing his identity in Christ already! As for the temper, shooooooo-eeeeeeee I understand, but, yeah, it doesn't make it right. I guess that's what God's grace is for. We try and try again...a step at a time. Nice job on your CFT, too. You have so much power in that little body of yours! Nice job on all your prs!
I will pray with you also!
The good will overcome the bad... the best thing you can do when you have a moment where you lose it is to show the boys that you are sorry... show them how to repent. It has done a lot around here!
I am certain that you are being hard on yourself. Although it is always good to recognize areas for improvement don't forget to give yourself credit too! You are a great mommy.
um, a few things: 1) you are WAY too hard on yourself. 2) seriously, your boys would make for a great sitcom. They are hilarious. :)
so since you looked so amazing when i saw you over christmas, i went out and bought a pull up bar. i am so weak though. can only do like three....
I've been praying for you, Krissy, and will continue to.
And, by the way, dinner at your house sounds a lot like dinner at mine. I still can't figure out how Madeline manages to escape the belts on her booster seat -- but next thing you know, she's crawling or standing on the table!
But, dinner antics aside, isn't amazing (and more than a little frightening) how mothering reveals our sin? I find myself astonished by it, time and time and time again. (And again and again...)