That came earlier than I expected


Caleb: "Where is heaven?"
I answered something about it being so far away we don't even know where it is.
Caleb: "How can I get there?"
I said you have to believe in Jesus as your savior.
Caleb: "I can do that. I can believe in Jesus."
Then, a moment later, Caleb said, "Hannah popped that ball and won't give it back."
(Okay so he doesn't understand his need for salvation yet, but he's asking questions. And he is interested, at least until the dog distracts him.)
Joshua jumped from learning to say words to expressing full-fledged deep feelings. When putting him in his car seat, I heard him say, over and over, "I NO love you, Mama." But to be fair, this was the first time I heard him say that. Usually he says "I love you," for no reason, but always with a big grin on his face. He even says it to Caleb. Today he said, and this is for you, Dad, "I love you, Choo-choo."

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Twinbelly- 21 weeks

The belly grew about 3 weeks ago. Since then we've been holding steady. It's bigger than before, to be sure, but I actually lost weight last week. I know I need to eat more. There's just little incentive when it's me cooking, me cleaning, and no one else to appreciate my grits and greens with salmon.
Sorry for the goofy look on my face. I just wanted to show that my belly isn't always so obtrusive. I can almost hide it with a silly looking belt.

Sometimes it looks like one could just pop the belly off and take it to the basketball court.

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Time with Family

We went to Augusta and Atlanta to spend time with family. And we got a lot of it. Here's everyone on our week-early Mother's Day. (We celebrated early because Mom left for the Ukraine for a mission trip the next day.)
Dad showed the boys a 2 minute video of a live-action dinosaur show in Indianapolis. The boys kept asking to watch it. Joshua would walk up to the computer and say, "Dino! Dino!" Caleb was worried about the little kids at the show and wondered why they weren't getting eaten.

Caleb's first bike ride in the bike seat. I don't know how he avoided it this long, but my Dad was accosted with requests one evening, and he didn't even have a chance to change out of his scrubs. Caleb got a turn, then Joshua, then Caleb again.
Joshua was totally unthrilled about the ride at first.
But by the time they got out of the driveway, he was chattering away.
Dad took the boys fishing in the backyard. It was sweet thing to see from the back porch.
I caught a 2-lb catfish one day in that little pond. Dad showed me how to cast then walked away to tend to the grill. I hadn't fished in over 15 years. I caught the fish (Caleb named him "Spotty"), but forgot how to reel him in. So I just backed up and yanked the thing out of the water. The boys squealed with delight at him flopping on the shore while I yelled, "Dad! Dad!" We threw him back, of course.
We also got to hang out with our family on Kevin's side. Kevin's sisters Missy and Laura both had babies recently and we went to Atlanta to go to Josh and Laura's daughter's baptism. I got a few pictures of that gathering (below). The following Sunday we were able to attend Wayne and Missy's son's baptism. So grateful that we worked it out to go to both.

The boys with Missy's daughter, Landry.
And the boys playing with Laura's son, and our precious godson, Elliott.
Kevin's mom. In the space of four years she went from no grandkids to six. In a few more months that total will push up to 8. Wow. Of course, I didn't catch all six kids with her in the same shot.
From left to right, Joshua, Landry, Elliott, Tucker, and Caleb. Baby Charlotte was inside getting some Dada time.

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Big baby news

We found out today. I had a super long ultrasound and after just a few minutes we saw that Baby B is a Boy! One boy for sure, but Baby A was difficult to see. I announced to Caleb that one of the babies is a boy. "I know," he said confidently as he continued playing with Amanda's purse, "and the other is a girl."
Kevin called while the technician was taking some measurements on Baby B and waiting for Baby A to move into a better position. We sat there without too much to say, anxiously waiting for the sonographer to go back to Baby A and let us know already. Finally she got a good shot and the assistant said, "Oh look, you can really see now." And the sonographer announced, "It's a little girl!"
I got to tell Kevin right away. "Wow, " he said, drawing it out as we both pondered our new reality.
Caleb was unimpressed with the news as he has been telling me for at least a month that there is a girl baby and a boy baby in my belly. Kevin also predicted as much.
For all of his good intuition, though, Caleb is certainly wrong about one thing: the names.
Right now he has named them "Hoogily-Boogily" and "Dooggily, Dooggily."
I am thankful for so much. First of all for two healthy babies. The sonographer spent forever measuring 100 things (times two) and apparently all of the measurements looked normal. That is great news and kind of a relief. There is always the possibility of abnormalities and complications, but the possibility is a little higher with twins. I am relieved to hear that everything looks good for now.
I am so grateful that Kevin was able to call, and that they let me talk to him during the ultrasound. That was perfect, all things considered, and quite a miracle.
I am also thankful my boys got to be in there. Caleb was excited to watch "a video of the babies." (However I think he was more excited about the video part of "video of the babies" than the babies, but whatever.) Caleb held my hand for a little bit, but got tired and dropped it like a sack of potatoes. It was still sweet to have my boys with me.
And I am incredibly thankful that my sister Amanda spent 6-plus hours of her day driving to come be with me, and to take care of the boys while I finished the 3 hour-long appointment. She is very generous and I am so glad to have such a good friend in my sister.
So the waiting is over for now. We know. One little girl to dress up and dote on. One little baby boy to love and cuddle and treasure. I have a feeling he will be my baby.
Twins are labeled A or B depending on their position. A is closer to the birth canal. B is farther. So in all likely-hood B will be born second. B is the boy. So that's why I am already thinking of him as the baby, even though his sister would be just moments older than him. And anyways, things can change or they can arrive at the same exact time if for some reason they have to do a C-section.
Also just to be clear, since they are opposite sexes, they are definitely fraternal twins. That means they came from two different eggs and two different sperm. So they might be alike but they could be as different as any two siblings can be, because they are basically a brother and a sister that happen to be sharing the womb together.
So if you wondering why the bushes in front of my house are so tall that we can't see out of our windows, or why I haven't done dishes in a few days, it's because I've been scouring the world for clearance girls' dresses. I know I won't have time to do much shopping after the babies are born, so I better get it in now.
Praise God for all of the blessings in my life. He really knows how to make a girl feel loved.

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Nervous: Boys, Girls, or a Boy and a Girl

So finally, after 11 weeks of waiting, we'll get to find out the sexes of the babies tomorrow, as long as they cooperate. I'm thrilled that my older sister, Amanda, gets to come with me. That way I won't be alone when I see the twins. And Caleb and Joshua will get to see their little siblings on the screen.
Of course I miss Kevin all of the time. Increasingly. But at big moments like this, I really would love to be holding his hand. For our little (soon to be big) family to be together. But alas, we all make sacrifices for the things we believe in.
What I am really nervous about, is finding out the sexes. If anyone has asked whether I want a girl, I have always replied with, "At least one." But the truth is that I am scared that if there are two little boys swimming around inside, that no one would believe me when I say that I am thrilled. A daughter would be a fun departure from my boy-filled world. An opportunity to have a different kind of relationship. Mother-daughter relationships, though fraught with complications and implications, are fundamentally different than the mother-son relationships I've witnessed. Though I know of several families with all sons that are incredibly close-knit, these boys/men seem to be an exception. Daughters just call their moms more, usually, and have a close relationship with their mothers. So anyways, it would fun to have a daughter.
But I know boys. And I love my sons. More boys would be an enormous blessing. And I've got a ton of boy clothes. But I might have to keep the dog. Just so I could put a bow in her hair every once in a while.

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